In the days before these portraits disappeared I desperately wanted to protect them for her and their intended recipients, first from weather and then from people who wanted them for themselves. Another talented friend and I were prepared to pull a heist ourselves to save them from a relentless rain. We let it ride after meeting up with the artist. We wanted to let the project be seen by passersby. We let go, a little bit.
Nicole Bourgea has done an amazing job of letting go. She hopes the people who took the last portraits had some profound reason for taking something that clearly did not belong to them.
I have had a hard time letting go. This project and these last two paintings in particular moved me. They moved my family. My little girl ran her hands across the thick paint of a portrait of a surveyor, she kissed the bottom edge. I've spent the past few days walking my neighborhood with eyes wide, searching, hoping that one of the homeless people I know has squirreled the treasure away.
Today I realized that my inability to let go was keeping me from my own art. I have my own little squirrel to thank for this realization. She led me into the park and spent two hours reminding me that it is all as easy as collecting acorns and spending your time finding as many pleasing uses for them as you can. I had big plans of hiking as vigorously as you can with a three-year-old, but she was determined to stop in the place that had the most acorns and refused to budge. Everything she needed was in that spot and she didn't waste a moment. Constantly creating and enjoying her moment in time. It was contagious. Suddenly I was sketching acorns, gathering more, photographing her and little berries I would have breezed past to get to the trail.
If we linger too long on the life of art after its creation we are choking out the art that is waiting to be created.